Life with Two kids under Two
I never in my life imagined that I would have children at 18 years old much less two kids under two. I did know that whenever I did have children I wanted them to have a sibling. Someone they could play and grow up with. Seeing them bond and interact is one of the greatest blessings God has given me.
I was so nervous and anxious when I found out I was pregnant with baby number 2. Isaac was 8 months old when I got a positive result on a dollar store pregnancy test. April 20th to be exact. I was scared I wouldn’t love him as much as I loved Isaac. I remember constantly telling my husband that I didn’t know if it was possible to love another human being as much as I loved our first born. Well let me tell you, it is definitely possible. My love for both of them has grown and I love them equally and immensely the same.
Of course, when Ivan was born, Isaac didn’t have a clue what was going on. I remember joking with my husband telling him that Isaac must be wondering where we got this baby from and why is he now living with us.
At first, Isaac would just glance at Ivan when we would hold him. It’s as if he was hesitant to get to know this new little being. Now it’s a whole different story. Isaac now knows who Ivan is and is constantly showing his affection towards his little brother. He loves being a big brother. Whenever Ivan is crying Isaac searches for his pacifier or tries to put music on the baby swing set to soothe him. I cannot tell you how many kisses a day Ivan receives from his big brother.
These are the things I will remember the most. I know I will miss these little moments once they are older. Although sometimes I do think to myself (my husband also thinks this as well) I cannot wait till they’re both older. That is simply because having two under two is also physically and sometimes even emotionally draining.
Being a stay at home mom isn’t so easy when you have a toddler (who just turned into a toddler) and a newborn who constantly fight for your attention. My daily battles are who’s cry is most important? Usually it’s Ivan’s. However, I always make sure that I give Isaac just as much attention as I gave Ivan. But overall, he has been an amazing little mommy’s helper and an a great big brother throughout this process.
I know it’ll get easier as they grow. They already seem to love each other so much, I’m sure they’ll be the best of friends.
The first few days I was a nervous wreck. I was constantly worrying that I would not be able to do it and that I was a bad mother for feeling that way. However, I will say that going from 1 to 2 kids was definitely an easier transition than going from 0 to 1. Simply because I already sort of knew what to expect. All I had to do was figure out a routine that would fit well for us. One that has been working great for us so far. Fingers crossed it stays that way!
Going from 0 to 1 means changing your lifestyle drastically. There is no book that tells you exactly how to do things step by step because no process is the same. Therefore you have to learn as you go. Of course you have family and friends that can help you at times and give you advice but YOU are the one that is going to be waking up a million times at night trying to figure out why your baby is crying. You are the one that will most likely be sleep deprived.
For all you mommas that have two kids under two or maybe even three kids under three, no worries. It might be tough at first but seeing them grow close in age and having that bond like no other is definitely rewarding. Time will pass and I’m sure you’ll miss those days someday.
Isaac 17 Months, Ivan 1 Month